i'm going out of town

i just cant take being here in baltimore another day. i'm going to north carolina to visit my best friend ashley. but the damn ticket is 185. damn shit. but whatever. i know she will take care of me. devin told me a couple days ago that i am always irritable. and that he cant remember a time that i have ever been NICE. i said well DAMN! and even kieth said that b4 i got pregnant with kira i was always comming off like i was mad or annoyed. i think i'm a sweet person. i dont remember being like this though before being with devin. its like i was much calmer, happier. i wasnt annoyed. today i went in the kitchen, and he had taken clothse out of a bag and had them in the middle of the kitchen floor! y?? i dont know! so i was like "what are these clothse in the middle of the kitchen floor for?" i still dont know why they were on the floor well of course it sounded like i was fussing to him. but i'm like that was dumb as shit!! STOP doing shit like leaving fuckin closthse in the middle of the kitchen floor and maybe i would be nicer! i wouldnt have fussed had he not done that. i feel like im being blamed and deamonized for my attitude when he does shit to annoy me!! so i said this and he got mad and said "you blame me for all your problems and i didnt do it!" no you didnt do it but u sure as hell add to it! mmmm...it hurt his feelings. i could see why. but thats how i feel. a lot of my anger and frustration comes form him. i need a therapist