Friday, August 13, 2010

Inspire Me Beautifully

i want these shoes TERRIBLY!! They're called Brogue Shoes. But they are EXPENSIVE so im going to search for a similar pair that look alike. just some low cut lace up's will do. i wonder where i can find a pair

i also want these Doc Marten boots

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Going on a Fast

im not a muslim as u all know, but i will be fasting this month for Ramadan. Yesturday was my first day, so far so good. But not only will i be fasting from food, i will also be fasting from the internet, television, spending money (except to buy for my houshold), telephone use, and music for this month. i figure the time would be devoting to these things i can devote to prayer and bible reading. i have wanted to live a more diciplined life and i will start now. pray for my success. Toodles BBB members (bad bald b*)

i like that my tongue ring matches my shirt

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Inspire me Beautifully

I Cant Give Up

There days when i just want to give up. i want to do anything anymore. i dont want to be a mother, wife, worshipper, worker, provider ECT...i just want to be left alone. But then i think about the consequences of not doing these things. I think of the disaster and guilt that would insue. I think about how not ONLY do I have too much to loose if i were too give it, but i have sooo much to gain when i keep going. AS A AMTTER OF FACT...not ONLY do i keep GOING...but i do MORE. i go above and beyond the call of duties. because i know what i will reap when i do. i know my marriage will prosper, my baby will grow up strong and smart...shit ..ill have aplace to live. lol. so i give myself pep talks to get through each day...each hour. i tell myself to pray and read, and work out because one day it will all click and i will hear God's voice sooo clearly i wont want to do anything eles.
Tomorrow starts Ramadan. i know i am a christian and it is a muslim practice...but who cares. Christians fast too. Its a command for christians to fast. as a matter of a fact my church fasts every Wednesday. but i will be doingit for 30 days starting August 11. i cant wait to do this. i have to refrain from food,liguid, and sex. from sun up to sun dowm. and usually thats from like 6a-9p. i can do that. i plan on eatting A BIG deal of food around 5:30. and snacking for the time prior to that while im at work and drinking lots of water.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Poots at The Park

Bored With The Internet Lately

i have been just reading, and tweeting sparingly. i write a lot in my physical notebook. this weekend was a good one. poots and i went to the park. she and i hardly spend any time together anymore. it really hurts. i miss her so much. but i dont know what to do. i HAVE to sleep. and by the time i sleep during the day and go pick her up round 5 i barely see her cause she's sleep around 7. but maybe now that devin wont be taking her to his job (cause he wont b needed anymore)she and i can spend more time together. cause i do wake up around 1 or 2. so we could spend the remander of day together.idk how it will work out. but something's got to give cause i miss her terribly.
i have been drenched in reading material lately. I LOVE it. i would rather read then watch tv. and when i do watch a little tv...i almost feel gulty about it cause i think...."this time watching tv could have spent knocking out a few pages of that book." til next time, lovelies

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

today when i was leaving the library

a lady and her daughter were walking in. and she stopped her daughter and told her to look at me and she said "see! you dont have to have long hair to be pretty!" i thanked her and said "YOU TOO!!!" she was, she wore a TWA longer then mine, but still short n cute.