Sunday, November 18, 2018
Tuesday, November 13, 2018
Loving Myself. A Few Things I've Added.
I heard many wonderful reviews of this Wild Growth oil. I've used it before but not on a consistent basis like I should have. Well, i got some more to help regrow these edges and I will be consistent and documenting my growth. A lot of times what gets discouraging to me is not being able to REALLY tell if a product is working or not. But if 'm consistent and take before and after pictures it keeps me motivated and encouraged to stick with a routine EVERY DAY. Yes, I have been doing better to consciously add a few practices and habits that LOVE on myself but I want to do it on a DAILY basis, for a WHILE to SEE the improvement. I exercise in the morning when I get off work. I just head straight up to the gym and do at least a 2 mile jog. I lift weights for my arms, legs, and do crunches so the abs. I do it because i feel great when I do it. I'm happier, calmer and over all just enjoy being in my own skin more when I exercise and run.
I will set the goal to quit smoking as many times as i need til i sticks. And i BELIEVE it will. I affirm to myself "I am not a smoker." "I quit smoking." EVEN IF I DO light up I STILL affirm " I am NOT a smoker." Tonight my goal is to NOT ask for a cigarette and just go to the gym instead of stright outside to smoke after work. And when I am on the bus stop, I'll PRAY. PRAY. PRAY. PRAY. My goal tomorrow is to get home WITHOUT a cigarette and instead just go to the gym to change my ROUTINE of what I normally do. That's tough love. Because it's something that's a habit. I DON'T like it. I DON'T want to do it. BUT the appeal in it, is that it feels good to do. BUT THAT DOESNT MATTER. Smoking kills. It HARMS. It causes you to age, ETC. AND IT DEFINITELY DOES NOT SHOW MYSELF THAT I LOVE MYSELF. THAT IS NOT A SELF LOVING HABIT. Loving my God= Loving myself. And i will show God how much I love and appreciate it and am ready for it by cleaning my mind and body. LOVING MYSELF in every way. No matter how hard it is. I love me and I don't want to do things to myself or my body that hurt and harm me or cold cause me to have cancer. I just need all the prayer. lol. It's bad for the skin too. It ages you and dries you out. smh.
On another note, another possitive thing I have been doing for myself is taking my vitamins on a regular basis.
Monday, November 12, 2018
Just Writing
This week was ok. I know i'm HAPPY it's Friday and get to be with my babies! Plus I JUST went to the grocery store so w have all the food we can enjoy. I started this week off on a good foot with exercising. I went to the gym Monday and Tuesday. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE running. he only problem is that i don't want/ need to loose ANY more weight . So I have to curve my enthusiasm to go to the gym and JST RUN for miles on end. owever, there is a youtube video that I wold like to follow on Wednesdays and do yoga on the weekends. o stay consistent but still give my joints and legs a break. Speaking of breaks, I STILL havnt braided my hair. I am happy about it. I decided that I will start a protective style challenge Dec- Feb. It's just three months and wont be so damaging because I plan on doing a lot of two strands twist. But for this month I'm doing wash n' goes with my difusser.
Thursday, November 8, 2018
New Thought Sermon: The Progeny of God
prog·e·ny
/ˈpräjənē/
noun
- a descendant or the descendants of a person, animal, or plant; offspring."the progeny of mixed marriages"
synonyms: offspring, young, babies, children, sons and daughters, family, brood;
Wednesday, November 7, 2018
Tuesday, November 6, 2018
New Thought Sermon: Words Become Matter
"Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me." But in the process, we taught our children that words don't matter. When in reality, words BECOME matter. They become buildings, and experiences, and THINGS. "You can't complain your way to happiness, health and success." How can complaining created happiness, and health? How does God see this? Would od complain about this? 2. Bless everything with gratitude. THank you God for everything. The art of allowing, is blessing everything. Nothing is ACTUALLY ever WRONG. "What some meant for evil, God meant for good. "I allow (insert good thing)" and later when you're ready "I allow (insert not so good thing)." 1. "wait a min, I'm God" 2. "I allow____" 3. Practice being thankful for EVERYTHING. You were taught to complain. Meanwhile you're just disrupting your feel of good.
Monday, October 29, 2018
Sunday, October 28, 2018
Thursday, October 25, 2018
NATURAL HAIR: My Twist Out
I just wanted to show what I'm looking like now- days. lol. My length after clipping my ends last Saturday and this BOMB ASS twist out as a result
Wednesday, October 24, 2018
New Thought Sermon: I Am The God Experience
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sl9rhfixlIA&list=PLxsiPkfyRpFBJz9UkVGfhlsj5cFaJ2vNt&index=4
My Natural Hair
I remember when I started this blog, one of the main subjects I wrote about was my hair. Over the course of this journal I've done many things to it, including cut it. Many times. Ive been natural for a bout ten years and I am JUST NOW coming to a love of my hair again. I remember when I first went natural I had so much fun researching all the ways to care for and style it. The forums and message boars were always POPPIN and FUN. As time went on and it grew out I didn't LOVE it as much as I thought I would. I became a mom and a wife and the love of my hair was replaced with other things. It was REALLY expensive to care for my hair and keep it styled. On top of that i really didn't love it. I didn't love the texture. I didn't love the length. I didn't love the CONSTANT split ends and fairy knots. So for about 3-4 years or so I kept it shaved bald. I kept a number 1. Because although I didn't LIKE my natural hair I didn't want a perm. I wanted to like it, I just didn't.
Fast forward to about 2 years ago when Devin and I first split and I was ready to grow it out but i knew I wanted something different. I needed it cut cute, and in good shape. So I started to grow it out again , but I kept my one side shaved and I just grow it out like that. I gave it time to grow out. Started styling it again ad buying products for it.
Now I'm in love again. I've recently been watching YouTube videos on hair CARE. n hair LOVE and respect. AA hair is no the type of hair that doesn't need CARE and LOVE. It need ATTENTION, TIME and RESPECT, that's something I purposely made time to do for myself after the break up. For years I forgot about the IMPORTANCE of a regular hair ROUTINE. When I was younger and first went natural, my hair care routine was all I lived for. Having a schedule of hair care and documenting certain things ( like when you last clipped your ends) is SUPER important. Regularly co-washing, and detangling, DEEP conditioning treatments, and trims. Protective styling WITHOUT hair extensions needed. 1. It gives your hair line a break from the stress and extra weight of hair and braiding. 2 It forces me to come to grips with the love of my hair. Taking a break from extensions and braids allows you time to look at yourself in the mirror and LOVE what I have growing on my head.
I have been watching SO many YouTube videos on 4c hair care and growth tips. Products to try that arent too expensive and STYLES. SO. MANY. NATURAL. STYLES. It's been inspirational and motivational. Motivational to do things like remembering to take my vitamins every day so my hair can grow in thick and healthy. This past weekend, on Saturday I clipped my ends. t needed it and i NEVER want to grow my hair out without clipping my ends again. That was one of the main things that discouraged me before and mad me cute it all off and rock the Cesar cut. Split ends are like FAKE FRIENDS. GET RID OF THEM! So i did. They are a length delusion and illusion. They just give you false hope about your hair when it reality it's DEAD. DEAD hair that needs to go. And honestly I would rather clip my ends NOW, as opposed to not and having split ends and crazy ugly dry hair later that I'll have to cut ALL off because it wont be any good ANYWAY. SO NO! I'm not going through that. Saturday was my first trim in the two years that I have been growing it out. Which was OK. I wanted to give my hair time to get some length before I cut it. I shouldn't have gone two years but it's ok because I wont go that long again. I will definitely be clipping my ends seasonally. Every season (about every 3 mos) I'll clip my ends GENTLY. So that it can be healthy and pretty. Not to mention the fact that freshly clipped ends feel REALLY good and look even better.
In the mean time I have adapted a new attitude and a new hair care routine. I still have to do things on a budget so I'm careful with that. But pretty much:
EVERY MONTH: Clarifying Wash with a DEEP CONDITIONING treatment
EVERY TWO WEEKS: Deep Conditioning with hot oil treatment
EVERY WEEK: Co Wash on Sundays, detangle, and retwist/ quick style
EVERYDAY: -Take my vitamins
- Moisturize my hair with a leave in and seal with a oil or a butter
- Sleep with my scarf on.
Nurturing my edges and ends is EVERYTHING to me right now and kind of my hair care priority. Plus, a youtuber said she named her hair and I just thought that was a really neat, cute idea that fosters a love of hair. I'm trying to think of one for mine.
Fast forward to about 2 years ago when Devin and I first split and I was ready to grow it out but i knew I wanted something different. I needed it cut cute, and in good shape. So I started to grow it out again , but I kept my one side shaved and I just grow it out like that. I gave it time to grow out. Started styling it again ad buying products for it.
Now I'm in love again. I've recently been watching YouTube videos on hair CARE. n hair LOVE and respect. AA hair is no the type of hair that doesn't need CARE and LOVE. It need ATTENTION, TIME and RESPECT, that's something I purposely made time to do for myself after the break up. For years I forgot about the IMPORTANCE of a regular hair ROUTINE. When I was younger and first went natural, my hair care routine was all I lived for. Having a schedule of hair care and documenting certain things ( like when you last clipped your ends) is SUPER important. Regularly co-washing, and detangling, DEEP conditioning treatments, and trims. Protective styling WITHOUT hair extensions needed. 1. It gives your hair line a break from the stress and extra weight of hair and braiding. 2 It forces me to come to grips with the love of my hair. Taking a break from extensions and braids allows you time to look at yourself in the mirror and LOVE what I have growing on my head.
I have been watching SO many YouTube videos on 4c hair care and growth tips. Products to try that arent too expensive and STYLES. SO. MANY. NATURAL. STYLES. It's been inspirational and motivational. Motivational to do things like remembering to take my vitamins every day so my hair can grow in thick and healthy. This past weekend, on Saturday I clipped my ends. t needed it and i NEVER want to grow my hair out without clipping my ends again. That was one of the main things that discouraged me before and mad me cute it all off and rock the Cesar cut. Split ends are like FAKE FRIENDS. GET RID OF THEM! So i did. They are a length delusion and illusion. They just give you false hope about your hair when it reality it's DEAD. DEAD hair that needs to go. And honestly I would rather clip my ends NOW, as opposed to not and having split ends and crazy ugly dry hair later that I'll have to cut ALL off because it wont be any good ANYWAY. SO NO! I'm not going through that. Saturday was my first trim in the two years that I have been growing it out. Which was OK. I wanted to give my hair time to get some length before I cut it. I shouldn't have gone two years but it's ok because I wont go that long again. I will definitely be clipping my ends seasonally. Every season (about every 3 mos) I'll clip my ends GENTLY. So that it can be healthy and pretty. Not to mention the fact that freshly clipped ends feel REALLY good and look even better.
In the mean time I have adapted a new attitude and a new hair care routine. I still have to do things on a budget so I'm careful with that. But pretty much:
EVERY MONTH: Clarifying Wash with a DEEP CONDITIONING treatment
EVERY TWO WEEKS: Deep Conditioning with hot oil treatment
EVERY WEEK: Co Wash on Sundays, detangle, and retwist/ quick style
EVERYDAY: -Take my vitamins
- Moisturize my hair with a leave in and seal with a oil or a butter
- Sleep with my scarf on.
Nurturing my edges and ends is EVERYTHING to me right now and kind of my hair care priority. Plus, a youtuber said she named her hair and I just thought that was a really neat, cute idea that fosters a love of hair. I'm trying to think of one for mine.
Tuesday, September 18, 2018
Thursday, September 13, 2018
Wednesday, September 5, 2018
VIDEOS: Today is my Quit Day
There were so many good and helpful points in these videos about stopping the habit of smoking. I honestly don't understand why I ever started. I honestly think i thought it was cool. How lame is that? And then out of "coolness" it became a habit and then past that I would say a need. I would call it a need. I felt I needed it to cope with the stress of life. THAT sounds even LAMER then my previous lame statement, but it's true. I have only really ever given quitting cigarettes ONE real good attempt, and i STOPPED. For TWO years. And then I picked it up again. People really can't blame anyone but themselves when it comes down to the habit of smoking. NOONE else makes you put that cigarette up to your lips. The two biggest reasons I want to quit is 1. It sets a TERRIBLE example for my children to see. Kira REALLY wants me to stop smoking so that I don't get cancer. She saw a commercial of a lady with half her face gone and said she doesn't want that for me. I told her I would quit because she wants me to and THAT matters. But really I WANT TO. More then anything. Her wanting it is just additional motivation. 2. I don't want cancer or any other smoking related illness. There are a bunch of other reasons too that I keep closed in my hand written journal. But I'm ready. I'm prepared for it being a journey but I am set to win. I need to get through 72 hours NOT smoking. After that the nicotine is out of your system and the physical symptoms of quitting subside a lot.
Friday, August 31, 2018
VIDEO: Loving OUR Breasts! By Accepting Our BREASTS!
All I've been thinking about is self love and self care. Learning me all over has been a fun journey. Ive been able to write a lot more and the universe is attracting every bit of information I need to benefit my life right now. Including this video gem that was in my watch later list. I struggle with loving my breast , especially after having and nursing two children. They used to be GREAT. 34 DD's. Now, they are a THIN, saggy C cup. I feel self conscious when I am topless, or braless. Theres so much skin on them now. I want to love them again, but i just barely like them now. So everyday I'm going to massage my breast and tell them I love them. I have some breast exercises that I'll also do
The BIGGEST thing I need to help with and GREATEST act of self love to myself would be to quit smoking. The problem is, is that whenever I quit smoking I get depressed and anxious for a while initially. t subsides eventually but it takes a very long time and I just don't want to feel that hurt. I already batle with it, I don't want to spiral down hill but at the same time I don't want to die of lung cancer or have any sort of smokers disease. I honestly HATE that I ever picked up the habit. It is honestly one of my biggest regrets. But it's NOTHING to just STOP. I wish it were just THAT EASY. lol. But I WILL do it.
The three biggest challenges I have in my life now are
- Exercise
- Not smoking
- Eating right
Thursday, August 30, 2018
VIDEO Sermon: Cleansing ourselves of european concepts by Dr. Marimba Ani
Truly enjoyed this classic piece of information. I especially liked that she gave the parallel African concepts with the European concepts that need to be cleared out. Showing us and telling us exactly where a healthy spirit and mind should be thinking on and doing. "Everything single thing that European's do is about the pursuit of European power". If the way things are does not facilitate in the getting of power, and being able to dominate, the European is not interested. They have a very separatist mind. They HAVE to think that way, because the only way they can comfortably oppress others is by separating themselves and having a "better then THEM" attitude. That atitude and way of thinkng is in their DNA. I really don't understand how other people of color DON'T see how white patriarchal racism has marred every aspect of life for us.
Tuesday, August 28, 2018
I'VE MISSED YOU
I truly miss blogging and have been craving to get back at it again. here is so much more to talk about. My life is so different these days. I know i have slowed up with blogging with writing is always in my heart. I have still been:
1. Reading good books.
2. watching really good YouTube videos
3. doing my NATURAL hair
4. drinking lots of water
5. studying metaphysics
6. Working my Good Hospital job
So those are the few good points in my life. The kids and I also want to start a little family business of our own that I am really excited about. We'll be selling candy apples and candy strawberries.
I have a completely new living situation now but I like it for the most part and I have MY OWN APARTMENT. Been living there for almost 2 years now. I have a couple of roommates that I like but it's DEFINITELY character building.
Blogging has always been a relaxing hobby. I want to start incorporating it into my nightly routine again like how it used to be. This blog has ALWAYS held a special place in my hart especially since it was one of the first ways us natural girls put ourselves in these inter-webs, and we formed a community. Speaking of natural hair. My hair and I have more of a peaceful relationship. lol. I'm rocking a really cute side and back shave and i LOVE my curls. My texture is always popin especially when I have the proper curling products. But i even still like MY hair when I don't have it curly and it's just moisturized with shea butter and soft.
I still have those personal journey goals that I set and battle with. The flaws and habits that I see in myself that I'd like to heal and take a closer look at. I want to know who I am. What i believe in with solid conviction so that I can give the children more of a solid SPIRITUAL foundation. Since Devin and I have split I don't lie that I went through a period of real self destruction. There was not much consideration as o what my actions wold do to my reputation of peace of mind and I NEVER want to be there again. There was so much ANGER that I had to deal with. I have done so, but I stil have a long ways to go. I've dropped the ball with my REAL self care and self love. To be honest I don't love myself MUCH, and I certainly don't love myself PROPERLY and that shit HAS to change. A few methods as to HOW?
1.DAILY 15 min meditation
2. QUITTING , I MEAN REALLY QUITTING SMOKING. My children want me to stop this so bad and honestly so do I . I am ready to put this habit down. The desire is there, just not the will power.
3. Reading. I still enjoy reading. It's STILL my favorite pass time. I'm reading The Science of Mind. REALLY studying it to understand it and meditate on it. enjoy it so much. I'm also reading a few other secular books that are good. Including Issa Rea's Awkward Black Girl. really like it. She is HILARIOUS, smart and AWKWARD as hell. I really enjoy the book and her show Insecure. I can't wait to put the review up. Se is such and inspiration for me and I am SUPER proud of her.
4. Yoga/ Exercise. My biggest issue with ANY of this is freaking CONSISTENCY. What I would lie to see in myself is CONSISTENCY. Not even necessarily COMPLETION right now but just DOING what I am supposed to do to see results. Not just with exercise but all aspects of my life. want consistency and contentment. Peace and happiness. I downloading a cute little yoga exercise app to the phone. This is help me on track.
5. Smarts. I like workng on math equations and puzzles. That also relaxes me and increased brain power and fun
6. Watching educational YouTube videos has become another favorite pass time like reading. I just wish that I could remember more and recall of what I watch and read. So i'll be taking notes and making sure to put up the links with reviews of them on here. There are actually quit a few I have already watched and just need to put up and review.
7. STUDYING METAPHYSICS! It's so much fun. And really there is no one particular things to do here because my reading material, and youtube contents are all pretty much metaphysical books and videos.
I am really on on a personal journey of self, love, and care. Tough love and self discipline. I want to read great African American authors I've never read before and share them with my children. The kids and I watched Beloved on television this weekend past. It was fun and thy were surprisingly INTO it. It pointed out the important of watching iconic black films with them. Teaching them about history in this country is tricky because I only want to teach them TRUTH. Not just facts but TRUTH. There is a difference.
1. Reading good books.
2. watching really good YouTube videos
3. doing my NATURAL hair
4. drinking lots of water
5. studying metaphysics
6. Working my Good Hospital job
So those are the few good points in my life. The kids and I also want to start a little family business of our own that I am really excited about. We'll be selling candy apples and candy strawberries.
I have a completely new living situation now but I like it for the most part and I have MY OWN APARTMENT. Been living there for almost 2 years now. I have a couple of roommates that I like but it's DEFINITELY character building.
Blogging has always been a relaxing hobby. I want to start incorporating it into my nightly routine again like how it used to be. This blog has ALWAYS held a special place in my hart especially since it was one of the first ways us natural girls put ourselves in these inter-webs, and we formed a community. Speaking of natural hair. My hair and I have more of a peaceful relationship. lol. I'm rocking a really cute side and back shave and i LOVE my curls. My texture is always popin especially when I have the proper curling products. But i even still like MY hair when I don't have it curly and it's just moisturized with shea butter and soft.
I still have those personal journey goals that I set and battle with. The flaws and habits that I see in myself that I'd like to heal and take a closer look at. I want to know who I am. What i believe in with solid conviction so that I can give the children more of a solid SPIRITUAL foundation. Since Devin and I have split I don't lie that I went through a period of real self destruction. There was not much consideration as o what my actions wold do to my reputation of peace of mind and I NEVER want to be there again. There was so much ANGER that I had to deal with. I have done so, but I stil have a long ways to go. I've dropped the ball with my REAL self care and self love. To be honest I don't love myself MUCH, and I certainly don't love myself PROPERLY and that shit HAS to change. A few methods as to HOW?
1.DAILY 15 min meditation
2. QUITTING , I MEAN REALLY QUITTING SMOKING. My children want me to stop this so bad and honestly so do I . I am ready to put this habit down. The desire is there, just not the will power.
3. Reading. I still enjoy reading. It's STILL my favorite pass time. I'm reading The Science of Mind. REALLY studying it to understand it and meditate on it. enjoy it so much. I'm also reading a few other secular books that are good. Including Issa Rea's Awkward Black Girl. really like it. She is HILARIOUS, smart and AWKWARD as hell. I really enjoy the book and her show Insecure. I can't wait to put the review up. Se is such and inspiration for me and I am SUPER proud of her.
4. Yoga/ Exercise. My biggest issue with ANY of this is freaking CONSISTENCY. What I would lie to see in myself is CONSISTENCY. Not even necessarily COMPLETION right now but just DOING what I am supposed to do to see results. Not just with exercise but all aspects of my life. want consistency and contentment. Peace and happiness. I downloading a cute little yoga exercise app to the phone. This is help me on track.
5. Smarts. I like workng on math equations and puzzles. That also relaxes me and increased brain power and fun
6. Watching educational YouTube videos has become another favorite pass time like reading. I just wish that I could remember more and recall of what I watch and read. So i'll be taking notes and making sure to put up the links with reviews of them on here. There are actually quit a few I have already watched and just need to put up and review.
7. STUDYING METAPHYSICS! It's so much fun. And really there is no one particular things to do here because my reading material, and youtube contents are all pretty much metaphysical books and videos.
I am really on on a personal journey of self, love, and care. Tough love and self discipline. I want to read great African American authors I've never read before and share them with my children. The kids and I watched Beloved on television this weekend past. It was fun and thy were surprisingly INTO it. It pointed out the important of watching iconic black films with them. Teaching them about history in this country is tricky because I only want to teach them TRUTH. Not just facts but TRUTH. There is a difference.
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