Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Its not like

NOTHING has been going on lately..i guess i just havnt really wanted to write. i havnt felt like it. lol. but tonight i feel lik eit and i feel motivated. devin wants another baby not long after we get married. and i dont. i THOUGHT i wanted more kids...but i REALY REALLY dont. i just want one...my poots. i just cant see going through pregnancy, breastfeeding and the emotional up's and down's of hanving another baby. i only want to deal with it with one kid. plus the shit is expensive. but mainly because i only want my devotion and attention to be on one kid. i too felt hurt because he gave me an ultimatum of: either you SAY RIGHT NOW we can have another kid in the future or we cant get married. i felt hurt because its like..DONT FUCKIN GIVE ME ULTIMATUMS...im not a kid.he said that REALLY there is not COMPRIMISE. you either have one more kid or u dont.but it should be MY choice. dont fuckin give me ultimatums about MY BODY.so here is MY deal...we CAN have ONE more. dude could come out 1/2 & 1/2 for all i care...but number two is where it STOPS for me!

NATURAL BEAUTY INSPIRATION:Nneka




BATURAL BEAUTY INSPIRATIONS:Nneka





SO FIERCE! i love vintage beauty



BEAUTIFUL NATURAL INSPIRATIONS





BAUTIFUL NATURAL INSPIRATIONS





BEAUTIFUL NATURAL INSPIRATIONS





BEAUTIFUL NATURAL INSPIRATIONS





SOME CUTE FASHIONS






THE LAST PIC IS OF SISTER SLEDGE. ILOVE THIER STYLE. SO 70'S FUNKY FRESH N FLY

Monday, August 17, 2009

Not So Spiritual

To be honest lately i havnt done ANYTHING apiritually.i havnt read my bible, hardly pray and i havnt been to my meetings. idk whats wrong with me. i know its what i need to do...but is it just me or does it seem that the more i do these things the MORE hectic and out of control my life is and the more i go through emotionally?? i dont like that feeling. HONESTLY....the results when i am doing these things isnt peace and contentment..but tears and emotional unease. i know it is healthy. i know that its kind of like when you do a detox and rid you body of all the toxins through fasting, and colon cleanse its a uncomfortable process. the detox takes a lot of you, you may have bad dreams, hunger pains ect..but its the body ridding itself of these bad things. and thats what its like when i am on my spiritual rutine. its like, because the bible reveals things that are wrong in your life, relationships, personality...it hurts to face these things..it hurts EVEN WORSE to get rid of them (when u dont want to)it hurts to think DEEPLY on a matter when you DONT want to.
I thought spirituality was suppose to soothe those fears, dislikes and

Friday, August 14, 2009

40 Years After Woodstock

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Sorry i havnt written

in so long..gues i been on a bit of a dry spell. lol. not much going on though.mmmi m ot to happy about not doing what i am supposed to spiritually. havnt done my bible reading. idk y.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

STUNNING loc Styles (so pretty..i almost wanna loc)





Eva( from ANTM season 3)


YaYa ( one of my favorite ANTM from season 3)




IM STARTING SCHOOL!!

yaaaaay!! ok so i havnt written aboutit because i didnt want to spill the beans til i KNEW i was going. but YESSS starting his fall i will be back in school. this time for Occupational Health and Safety. i just pray that i stay focused and not let ANYTHING stop me from continuing my education. i am soooo dtermined not to, no matter what because i dont have mu ch time. i want to be done with this by the time poots starts school. im soooo excited!!! wish me luck!