Wednesday, October 26, 2011

BOOK: THE GIRLS GUIDE TO HOMELESSNESS by Brianna Barnes



I really enjoyed this book because it was written by an EX-Jehovah's Witness ani was drawned to it based off of our sharred history. My only problem with how she shared her experiences as a ex-JW and this is a similarity i have noticed that a lot of ex-JW authors share: The book was written with such a cinical undertone. That everything about Jehovah's Witnesses are BAD. I want to read one book by an ex-JW who doesnt taint the religion with thier cinicism and just exclaims like myself "i JUST DONT WANT to be a Jehovah's Witness. Its JUST not for me" Now, i do have my issues with the religion, hence why i choose not to be a JW. But i am not so bitter that i am out to turn everybody eles against JW's based off of my personal experiences. And its NOT a cult! BLAH!! Brianna Barnes, mother was a Jehovah's Witness, but she was a TERRIBLE PERSON and mother. She abused her daughter. But this was NOT BECAUSE she was a JW. Her being a JW had NOTHING to do with her being a general HORRIBLE mother and human being
But what REALLY made the book MOST enjoyable was the love story thats enterweaved in the pages. It really had me cheering for Brianna and Matt....then for it to twist and turn out the way it did....almost had me in tears. It was REALLY unexspected. It made me think about trust. And confirmed so many of the reasons for my trust issues. People can go REAL left feild on u and hurt the hell out of you for no reason.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

FEMINISM: YAHOO ARTICLE: Sexist ROyal Succession Rules? Tradition Favoring Boys Could Change For Will and Kate

Now, usually I could give a rats ass about Will and Kate. Yea...i said it! AND WHAT?!? *bucks violently* loool. But The feminist in me just had to give this article a go. I just love how the rules of male dominance are being challenged world wide. EEEOOOW!
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In England, women have the same rights as men—that is, unless they're royalty. The old-school rules of the British monarchy state that gender, not age, dictate lineage to the throne. So if Kate and Will had a girl, she'd only become queen if she didn't have a younger brother.

But the royal era of gender inequality is on the precipice of change, and not a moment too soon. Prime Minister David Cameron has proposed sweeping bans against the monarch's discriminatory, outdated laws.

Under his new proposal, Kate and Will's firstborn girl would have the same rights as their firstborn boy. And, on a larger scale, the rules would no longer favor kings over queens.

"We espouse gender equality in all other aspects of life, and it is an anomaly that in the rules relating to the highest public officer we continue to enshrine male superiority," Cameron wrote in his letter to the monarchy's commonwealth leaders.

Cameron also wants to toss out another dusty rule that bans royals who marry Catholics from succeeding the throne. This law was created during the tumultuous period of church and state upheaval in the late 1600's and Cmeron doesn't believe there's any justification for it in modern day times.

Palace officials haven't weighed in on the proposal officially, neither have Will and Kate. But the fact that the proposal has been raised now, only months into their game-changing marriage, probably isn't coincidental.

Kate and Will have already ushered in a new chapter for the royal family: they lived together long before they were wed, they're actually good friends, and nobody agreed to "obey" anybody else during their wedding vows. Although Will has the royal blood, Kate holds the proverbial conch with the public. This is not your "Sleeping Beauty" fairytale and it seems like a no-brainer that their union would be the perfect time to spark some change in the old-world sexism of the monarchy.

Still, Cameron's proposal isn't a done deal. In order for the changes to take place, he'll need approval from the 16 commonwealth countries under the rule of Queen Elizabeth. He'll also have to contend with the kind of royal-watching purists who are still reeling from Kate and Will's "unorthodox" wedding. Yes, they're out there.

Also surfacing are speculations as to the timing of Cameron's proposal: why now? Could there be a future queen already on board? Consider royal bump-watch officially on high alert.

http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/sex/sexist-royal-succession-rules-tradition-favoring-boys-could-change-for-will-and-kate-2583515/

JUST WRITTING

These past few days have been particularly trialsome.I have gotten away from writting so much on this blog because EVERYTHING was ALWAYS so negative and i began to feel ashamed of my life. And I know that, thats not what i promised when i opend this blog. What i promised to write and tell my story NO MATTER WHAT. Because my story may very well serve as a motivation or inspiration for someone eles.
I wont go into detail, but I BELIEVE you all know that I have been on anti depressants and was diagnosed with Severe Depressive Disorder a few months back. Well, this past weekend shit came to a boil and I was having suicidal thoughts. It was sad. And i felt so guilty, because of WHY I was having them. I never thought i would allow a man to be the cause of me wanting to KILL myself. Espcially when i have SO much MORE to live for. But i know now, that it wasnt JUST HIM. It was a combination of things mixed in with him that cause the evil contemplations.
I have never felt more under attack by satan then i have these past 2 years and few months.NOW i see how he REALLY operates. That he REALLY is out to kill me, make me unhappy,tare apart my marriage, and make me doubt God. I have found myself doubting God!! And wondering why i am so unhappy, and why my prayers to save my marriage and be happy have gone unanswered for so long. If this is what we were supposed to do to stop living in sin, then why havnt we been blessed? Am i only meant to live a life of misery? I cant, LITERALLY CANT remember the last time I have been happy. I mean...ok...I was a YOUNG teenager. Seems like EVERYTHING that could have gone wrong in my young adulthood HAS! And i am so dissapointed.
But i feel like things may be looking up soon, because last week when i was in the emergency room, I was able to start therapy that day and the next day. I will be going every week on Fridays. My therapist also does marriage canceling which Devin and I will be doing SEPERATE from my OWN therapy. Im excited, and im thinking this may actually work.

Friday, October 7, 2011

me just dancing and having fun

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my belly dance practice: hip slides/ hip circles

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my belly Dance practice: flutters/ rolls/ shimmie

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my belly Dance practice: flutters/ rolls/ shimmie

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my belly flutters/rolls: practice

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BELLY DANCE PRACTICE: Hip slide

HIP SLIDE





HIP CIRCLES
















HIP DROP:



lift drop, lift kick!

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

TRIBAL FUSION BELLY DANCE PERFORMANCE


Anais belly dance by anaislilia


Anais tribal fusion by anaislilia

HOW TO DO TRIBAL FUSION BELLY DANCE






















BELLY DANCER PERFORMER: Zoe Jakes








I Prayed

I prayed for God to bring me something in my life that makes me happy. For the past year i have studied belly dance an dpracticed it on my own. But I recently started taking free classes in belly dance ad ZUMBA!! i ABSOLUTELY LOVE belly dance. I love seeing myself improve and feel better about myself and my skill. I enjoy the dicipline of it all. And thats what makes me happy. The fact that i know that if i keep studying, stretching, and PRACTICE, PRACTICE, PRACTICE that I WILL improve. I KNOW i will because I HAVE. Its sooo motivating. Poots and I do it together. I have a couple people making me belly dance cd's. lol. And i was even invited to a Belly dance festival in New Jersey. YAAAY ME!!!

DAILY BELLY DANCE PRACTICE LIST

For the month of October this is my personal belly dance/ fitness goal: To practice these daily

-Belly Rolls
-Egyptian shimmy
-choo choo shimmy
-Undulations
-chest lifts/ chest V/chest circles
-Hip Drops
-Tummy Flutters
-Hip Exercises: as below VVV
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DANCE WHILE KNEELING:
-HIP slides
-" " circles
-" " bumps
-" " drops
-" " figure 8's
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YOGA POSES:
-The Cobra
-The Camel
-The Hero Pose
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DAILY EXERCISES:
-Running (?)
-Crunches
-Tummy Rolls
-Tummy Flutters

STRETCHES TO WORK THIS MONTH

My goal is to practice these poses everyday for about 30 mins for the rest of this month


THE CAMEL POSE


THE SPHINX/ COBRA POSE



THE HERO POSE


Learning backbends

http://www.shira.net/technique/backbend.htm

it took 30 minutes a day, five days a week for 2 months to get all the muscles trained.

hi - I teach different styles of bellydance plus polynesian dance
the trick to doing a backbend is to use your thighs and butt muscles to
lower yourself to the floor and lift back up again.
the muscles in your stomach area will tighten but it is actually your thighs
that are doing most if not all of the work and control/
to build up you muscles you need try kneeling on the floor resting your butt
on your heels// now lift up about an inch or two above your heels and do about
5-10 pelvic circles /// now slowly lower yourself back down and rest a bit
before you try it again
surprisingly this works quite well for strengthening the leg muscles to get you
started
let me know if you need more help ok?
happy dancing

BELLY DANCE PERFORMANCE

EXERCISE FOR BELLYDANCERS

BELLY DANCER'S EXERCISE

BELLY DANCE EXERCISE

BELLY DANCE EXERCISE: 1

BELLY DANCE PERFORMANCE: Egyptian Belly Dance

OMG!! her back beand is SOOO fuckin feirce!!

Monday, October 3, 2011

Belly Dance Practice: Egyptian shimmy

Everything is nice and flat, straight, and elongated

SHIMMIE SHIMMIE SHIMMIE

BELLY DANCE PERFORMANCE: Sharon Kihara










Sharon Kihara tribal Fusion by sakti_anesh


Sharon Kihara Tribal Fusion by sakti_anesh

BELLY DANCE PRACTICE: Figure 8 Hip Movement

BELLY DANCE PRACTICE: Body Undulations

BELLY DANCE PRACTICE: How to Improve Your Belly Roll

BELLY DANCE PRACTICE: Tummy Flutters

BELLY DANCE PRACTICE: BELLY ROLL

A belly roll is JUST the muscles of the belly moving

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DANCE: TADD AND LAUREN "Another One Bits The Dust"

DANCE; SASHA & KENT

Sunday, October 2, 2011

MY VOW TO WOMEN

I have taken on a new feminine responsibilty: To LOVE My SISTERS in a different way then I ever have before. I feel that it is VITAL to our sex to be united and appreciated. I have not always held to this ideal, for not too many years ago I didnt LIKE WOMEN!!**GASPS** I felt they were sneaky and catty, and only out to hurt. I like being in the company of men better because i felt i could avoid all of that. But allas sneaks and "cats" exist amongst both sexes. I too am gulity of sneaking and catting around myself. But as i have grown older and more mature i see the plight of women and children in this world. My feminist eyes have been opened and the light has been brightened on the situation we are in economically, spiritually, personally ect. I have concluded that women have behaved in this manner as defence mechanisms. A protection. ITS HARD OUT HERE FOR A PIMPSTRESS. lool. We take care of the children, clean the house, carry on jobs and careers and all of this to MAYBE have a FEW people in our corners cheering us on. In a situation like this who's PATIENCE and KINDNESS, and MORAL wouldnt be tried at times?? With that said i VOW TO BE IN YOUR CORNER. To cheer you on and "hold you down", simply because you are my sisters and if we dont do it...who will? I am not saying that there arent men out there who love, cherish and support us. But what has happened to US LOVING, CHERISHING and SUPPORTING OURSELVES?? I vow to never intentionally hurt another women, to smile at every women i see, and to do everythingin my power to help my fellow TRESSES. I hope i have a few followers who can can vow this vow of sisterhood with me??!!

HA!! what is THIS??

what type of dog is the black and white panda hybrid?? lool. It is ABSOLUTELY ADORABLE!! But wait??? whats that in the back ground?? An ode to the LGBT?

HOME INSPIRATIONS

I take inspiration for my home from pictures like this. I LOVE nature,and want to surround myself in it as much as possible. But living in the city as i do that can be pretty hard. So i relish in the ideas of LOTS of plants and mini water falls around my home. Indoor nature adds so much peace to the home. The plants clean the air, and other embelishments create scerenity to be envied by other home owners.







INSPIRE ME BEAUTIFULLY: Random Beauties!