Monday, July 30, 2012

A Few Websites I like to Visit Daily They are filled with funny, life and hair loving naturals who do there thing in the real world. Kind f keeps me smiling when it's hard to

BOOK: The Other Women by Joy Fielding

I HATED THIS BOOK!! OH! I couldnt WAIT until i was done. The plot of the book starts out as Nicole Clark approaching the main character Jill Plumley and informing her that she is going to marry her husband. And i thought from there it would keep getting juicy. Well, IT DIDNT after that initial FIRST sentence the book DRAGGED on pointlessly until i was about 1/2 through. Then at about the half way mark, things pick up with a interesting plot twist when murder is thrown into the mix. Not a GOOD, INTERESTING murder, but the murder of David Plumley's (jill's husband) boss. He was really a random dude i could have cared less was dead. But he was, and the guilty person was his wife, and Jill's Friend Beth Weatherby. But i hated this book SO BADLY because: 1.It dragged for the half the story 2.It's never revealed rather or not Beth was guilty 3.The authoress goes off on a lot of incoherent tangents along the storyline. Over all, i hated it, it was frustrating and i am glad it's over with. lol

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

BOOK: "You Can Heal Your Life BY Louise L. Hay

One of the inspirations for the new spiritual movement in my life. This book has proven to be VERY awakening and I enjoyed it quite a bit. It's about the power of the words you speak and the thoughts you think and how they affect the life you live. Words and thoughts hold a very powerful vibrational pull in them, and if we are not careful they will create for us our reality. It is so important to think positively and speak word into your life that uplift. "Beliefs are only thoughts that can be changed"

Tuesday, July 17, 2012


So i have to change the title of this blog to something new, and different to include a LITTLE BOY!!! From the beginning of my pregnancy i felt that i was having a boy. Call it a mother's intuition, i dont know. But i could feel BOY, although i did want a girl. When i was informed i was having a boy, i felt happy, good. Until i realized I"M HAVING A BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol. Suddenly I feel uncomfortable and out of my element. Kind of like I felt when i found out i was pregnant with Poots. Just unsure of how i was going to do this. I got so overwhelmed in the ultrasound room that i started to cry right there. uncontrollable, SOBBING, ENGULFING tears!! I felt like it was going to be hard to do. It's going to be hard to raise a boy with Devin. Because we are SOOOOOOOO different on matters, and things have worked out with Poots because she is a girl, but i dont know how things are going to fly with our son. I just kept thinking horrible thoughts like "he's a Bolling man, and Bolling men are hard to love." it's not that u cant love them, because I DO, love my husband, but it/ he is not easy and I dont want it to be hard or a challenge to love my son. I dont want to feel guilty about pouring love on my son the way i do with my daughter. Society has us believing that somehow boys deserve less, love, and attention because they are boys and in order for them to turn out "right" they need to be toughened up with less love. THATS BULLSHIT!! and i believe thats BULLSHIT with my WHOLE being. so i believe that things are going to be hard for me like they were in the beginning with poots. But despite my fears during my pregnancy with my son (teeeheee...i like the way "my son" sounds) i have felt like my life has had a divine intervention. I have felt sooo close to God and inspired to do my affirmations and prayers , and it feels WONDERFUL!!! I felt sooo close to my son, and to God that i KNEW what he was before confirmation, and i KNOW everything is gong to be ok. I feel like God is telling me that my son is anointed. For what? I'm not sure yet, but ANOINTED TO DO GREAT THINGS. To be a leader of some sort. To stand up and be righteous. I dont know, i cant describe it, but this on is something. I have sooo been into something different with my life lately. I'v been doing my affirmations. and i LOVE it. they feel GOOD. It even makes it easier for me to pray. i have been affirming into my life what i want from it. And believing that God and the universe have my best interest in form. I just have to BELIEVE that i can have THAT life. That, THAT life is for ME and stop doubting the good for me. I have concluded that i need to stop talking to certain negative people, and walk with a strong , high , head and heart. Stand on my own two feet. Because people say discouraging, negative things UNINTENTIONALLY. I dont believe that anyone in my life, would ever INTENTIONALLY hurt me, BUT it HAPPENS reguardless and that is what i am looking out for. I dont want to be surrounded my negativity. I dont want to HEAR it AT ALL. It hurts me. Always hearing that there is SOMETHING wrong with my kids, always hearing "well, is wrong with Kira, and this is how u made it wrong." always hearing " well, THAT WILL be damaging to her, and it WILL effect her negatively....and...and...and..." SHUT UP!!! Why not speak positivity into her life?? Not EVERYBODY comes out of thier childhoods damaged, and bitter, and broken. Just because that happened to YOUR kids, doesnt mean it will happen to mine, and i would appreciate u not spraying that negativity to me EVERY conversation. I want to be surrounded by positivity, light, love, affection, and good energy. i want to think positive thought. Believe in GOOD THINGS.I Believe that my children, are happy, healthy, good, people, that will grow into happy, healthy, good adults. AS A DIRECT RESULT of having a good, efficient, productive, happy mother. Amen and Ashe'

Monday, July 16, 2012

My cute little style i did

BOOK: The Devil In Pew Number Seven by Rabecca Alonzo

What an awesome book!! This book is christian themed, and tells the story of a pastor and his wife in a small southern state (i think N. Carolina) and how a jealous member of thier church slowly took everything this man had . So good! It shows how the family was able to keep thier faith in god, and exercise forgivness "the language of heaven" in the awesome way the author puts it. It is written by Rabecca Alonzo, the daughter of the pastor so she is just retelling her childhood and how it was tainted by fear of what was TRULY a devilish man.

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

My ONE year Hair Growth-aversary lmaooo

I started growing my hair last year in MAY. These pics were taken on May 16th (the day after my birthday) at my sister in law's wedding:
ONE YEAR and 2 mos later:

"Im The One That I Want" by Margaret Cho

This book was GREAT. ok, i RECENTLY have discovered and FALLEN in LOVE with Margaret Cho. In this book she shares her story of how she grew up and grew to fame as an adult and all the mess that comes with it. Through drug/ alcohol addiction and self hate and a eatting disorder. It was a REALLY AMAZING book. I love LOVE STORIES, especially SELF LOVE stories. MUAH!

OH! Here Are The Twists I Hated!

LOL ugghggghhhh

Hair update

OMG!! So much has happened with this head of time over the past few months. But I am still going on, and growing strong. So here goes:
1. My job wont upgrade the internet to Google chrome so its been kind of hard to post. So I do what I can from my phone.
2. A few months ago I went through this phase here I just HAD to have purple hair, so I beached the part I wanted and died it. Well it didn't come out the shade I wanted it to. I couldn't find the right semi permanent color. I let the purple fade and just went with the blonde in the front.
3. I found out I was pregnant and was entirely too sick and tires to do anything with my hair. And I really hated it. Because I was also quite depressed over it. Wight the pregnancy hormones and all, not looking pretty was not a good thing. But I also wasn't going to pay 150-200 dollars to get my hair professionally done
4. My ends were split REALLY badly and tthe back of my hair (like the nap area) broke off really badly! Idk how or y, because I NEVER apply heat to my hair. Not even a blow dryer and I only bleached the very front of my hair. And i dont think i could have sustained THAT MUCH damage from those few weeks of neglect in the beginning of my pregnancy.
5. So I cut the split ends off. And I mean my ENTIRE head was split ends. It was so discouraging because I lost a lot of length and all my hard work of growth and taking care of my hair went down the drain (literally).
6. As my pregnancy progressed and I entered my 2nd trimester a lot of the sickness and tiredness wore off so I put some. Braids in. It took me a week. But I just told myself not to worry about the time and just DO IT how I can. And that's just what I did. LOL. It turned out OK. Didn't last long. Only about a month. Although I wanted them for 2. Oh well.
7. The following month I broke down and went to the shop and paid 150 dollars to get my hair in spring twist and I HATED them. They were short and ugly to me. I was solo dissapointed. Not to mention that after a week they looked as if I had them in for 6 mos. They were fussy and falling out in the back where my breakage is. PISSED is not the word.
8. After I took them out I clipped my ends. And a glimmer of LIGHT! hardly no split ends. The last time I cut allllll the split ends out was about a month n a half ago. So I was happy. My goal is to do it every 6-8 weeks. Just to kept on top of it.
9. Saturday I paid 60 dollars to get my hair cornrowed only to have it come out in the back and look a mess after 3 days.
10. Today. I just feel like I am done wig trying to style it. Or paying a fuckin arm n a leg to get it done professionally only for it to come out in the back where its all broke off. So imma just continue to do it myself for the summer. And wear it out when I can to allow the back to grow to it will stay in styles I get. But as I said on twitter (I'm speaking to my imaginary readers and followers here. LOL) that I believe my TRUE hair "issue" is that no matter what I do, short, long, braid, twist, Afro WHATEVER I never feel pretty or satisfied. And it is a confidence issue. My skin is terrible no matter what I do and my hair never looks the way I want. So I am just being still and worrki g on that issue right now and taking care of the back of my hair:
1. Just trying to let my hair be out for the summer
2. Wear my satin cap everynight
3. Moisturize daily
4. Clip my ends