Sunday, September 29, 2019
Friday, September 27, 2019
Thursday, September 26, 2019
The Workouts I'm doing right now
I'm still unable to do them without stopping or even comeplete the whole workout. My goal is to complete the whole workout and to do it without stopping like they do. I use these no equipment workouts when I'm home and in the office but I still go to the gym when I get off work in the morning so that I can use the equipment and weights. My goal was to gain about 13-15 pounds.....i gained damn near 30 extra. lmaoo. I'm at 137 now. I'd like to be 120- 125. It's JUST 17 pounds to loose. I'll do it now in the fall and winter. I want to do it now before it gets out of control. Plus I'm still taking my medicine which helps me put pn weight. I want to couple that with a boss ass workout regimen.
Wednesday, September 25, 2019
Just Writting
I'm feeling a little more motivated than usual. I started the week off well with a god exercise on Monday, cleaning, and washing and braiding my hair for the next two weeks, My goal is to keep it braided/ twisted for a month or so until I can get my hair braided by the professionals again. This time I will be keeping them in for 3 mos instead of two.
I worked out by my knees hurt so bad, I have to learn some knee strengthening exercises. I only want to loose about 10 pounds or so. I gained the weight on purpose but I didn't mean to gain THIS much. MY issue with the way my body fat is set up is that when I gain weight is my weight never goes to the sexy places . It never goes to my butt and hips, it only goes to my gut. STRAIGHT STOMACH POUCH. and I hate that. I love the way I look over all from the weight gain (my thighs, face, breast etc) But by me having two kids my stomach is still loose. It's like I'm just not meant to have a ass. Because no matter what the weight wont go there. I didnt want 20 extra pounds just about 10 or 12. loool. Women are never satisfied with themselves. But really I just want to be healthy and in good shape. I want the HABIT and routine of working out. I want it to be something i do like 2nd nature. What I do believe is that a combination of weight gain AND a REGULAR workout/ ab routine will do my body good. My thing is workout consistency and my knee pain.
I promise myself to quit smoking. On my own. Without needing a partner, or supplements etc. It's something I want for myself bad enough. Jennifer Lopez said " You will ONLY make good decisions for yourself, when you love yourself." I want to love myself more and smoking doesnt show that i love myself AT ALL. She also said to set small goals for yourself and I have notice that when I set a small goal and accomplish it, it makes it easier to continue with it.
My baby girl go her first phone and I got one so she and I can talk and text on it all day. She is the only reason I finally broke down and got one. Cause I was having a grand time NOT paying that for that shit. So, i smoked 1/2 a cig my small goal for today is to go the rest of my work day without another cigarette break. I want to feel better physically and mentally about myself. Instead of going for smoke breaks today, imma go to the gift shop and get some snacks, and then when I am supposed to go on break imma go to the gym. Plus I downloaded twitter to help with my random thoughts. Imma take my vitamins and and drink my tea and just watch stuff and relax. o need to smoke. No need for my chest to feel tight and heavy. Sometimes I have shortness of breathe. All I want is to be smoke free. When I make it 3 days I can do the rest. But first things first day 1. I'll be tweeting my progress, thoughts and how I feel.
I worked out by my knees hurt so bad, I have to learn some knee strengthening exercises. I only want to loose about 10 pounds or so. I gained the weight on purpose but I didn't mean to gain THIS much. MY issue with the way my body fat is set up is that when I gain weight is my weight never goes to the sexy places . It never goes to my butt and hips, it only goes to my gut. STRAIGHT STOMACH POUCH. and I hate that. I love the way I look over all from the weight gain (my thighs, face, breast etc) But by me having two kids my stomach is still loose. It's like I'm just not meant to have a ass. Because no matter what the weight wont go there. I didnt want 20 extra pounds just about 10 or 12. loool. Women are never satisfied with themselves. But really I just want to be healthy and in good shape. I want the HABIT and routine of working out. I want it to be something i do like 2nd nature. What I do believe is that a combination of weight gain AND a REGULAR workout/ ab routine will do my body good. My thing is workout consistency and my knee pain.
I promise myself to quit smoking. On my own. Without needing a partner, or supplements etc. It's something I want for myself bad enough. Jennifer Lopez said " You will ONLY make good decisions for yourself, when you love yourself." I want to love myself more and smoking doesnt show that i love myself AT ALL. She also said to set small goals for yourself and I have notice that when I set a small goal and accomplish it, it makes it easier to continue with it.
My baby girl go her first phone and I got one so she and I can talk and text on it all day. She is the only reason I finally broke down and got one. Cause I was having a grand time NOT paying that for that shit. So, i smoked 1/2 a cig my small goal for today is to go the rest of my work day without another cigarette break. I want to feel better physically and mentally about myself. Instead of going for smoke breaks today, imma go to the gift shop and get some snacks, and then when I am supposed to go on break imma go to the gym. Plus I downloaded twitter to help with my random thoughts. Imma take my vitamins and and drink my tea and just watch stuff and relax. o need to smoke. No need for my chest to feel tight and heavy. Sometimes I have shortness of breathe. All I want is to be smoke free. When I make it 3 days I can do the rest. But first things first day 1. I'll be tweeting my progress, thoughts and how I feel.
Tuesday, September 24, 2019
Friday, September 20, 2019
BOREDOM!
I have been so incredibly BORED lately. The things that used to hold my interest pretty much no longer do and I haven't really been able to find more different hobbies I want to do. Anyway, this entry is just going to be a writing entry. There are hobbies that I am still doing like, reading my bible and reading my books. I still listen to my audio books and YouTube videos. But i wish that maybe a had a different subject or genre of interest. I still want to exercise DAILY, but find every excuse not to. looool. and it ends up being more like 1-2 times a weeks. What i AM SUPER excited about however, is my skin has cleared up SO MUCH. I mean, almost COMPLETELY clear of acne discolorations and bumps. That makes me SO HAPPY!! All I've been doing is taking my vitamins and using that bio oil, and after a few months of that consistently MY SKIN IS clearER than it's ever been before and I am so happy. That is actually very motivational, because when I can SEE the benefits of one thing it makes me want to do MORE good things for myself so I can see the benefits and differences it makes. But what's annoying is when i think back over the years of all the time, money and tears I cried on acne medicines I bought that didn't work and JUST HAVING THE ACNE, when all this time ALL I HAD TO DO WAS TAKE MY VITAMINS! That is VERY frustrating. But now I know, so I'm happier.
Like for an example exercise. I LOVE doing it....when i do it. But doing it on a regular basis is hard for me. But I'm going to START! Doing SOMETHING on a daily basis. SOME sort of daily exercise Because I was too skinny before, so i gained weight. i purposely took anti depressants that I knew would make me gain weight. What I wanted to do was take my pills and work out at the SAME time, so I could have that bangin BODY I've always wanted. Well, I didn't fucking do that. I didn't exercise daily like I was supposed to and I started working at Popeyes and gained 15 pounds and now it's 20. A little over what I wanted. My belly pokes out more when I have more weight on myself and I don't like that. So I HAVE to HAVE to start a regular exercise regimen. Rather I do it when I get off in the morning at the gym or rather I do something in the office from youtube. But either way I have to loose 10 pounds and make it a HABIT to exercise daily. Especially since the winter time is getting ready to start and taking my meds and exercising always helps me to combat the winter time blues.
Another good habit I want to incorporate into my daily regimen is drinking more water and less coffee. I have been drinking A LOT less coffee but not enough water in turn. his wekend I plan on exercising or doing yoga with my son. I'm going to do that with himm every Saturday starting this weekend. It can be our thing together. And I'm going to teach poots how to crochet
I'm also still writing this blog and working towards my 2,000 posts by 2020
Like for an example exercise. I LOVE doing it....when i do it. But doing it on a regular basis is hard for me. But I'm going to START! Doing SOMETHING on a daily basis. SOME sort of daily exercise Because I was too skinny before, so i gained weight. i purposely took anti depressants that I knew would make me gain weight. What I wanted to do was take my pills and work out at the SAME time, so I could have that bangin BODY I've always wanted. Well, I didn't fucking do that. I didn't exercise daily like I was supposed to and I started working at Popeyes and gained 15 pounds and now it's 20. A little over what I wanted. My belly pokes out more when I have more weight on myself and I don't like that. So I HAVE to HAVE to start a regular exercise regimen. Rather I do it when I get off in the morning at the gym or rather I do something in the office from youtube. But either way I have to loose 10 pounds and make it a HABIT to exercise daily. Especially since the winter time is getting ready to start and taking my meds and exercising always helps me to combat the winter time blues.
Another good habit I want to incorporate into my daily regimen is drinking more water and less coffee. I have been drinking A LOT less coffee but not enough water in turn. his wekend I plan on exercising or doing yoga with my son. I'm going to do that with himm every Saturday starting this weekend. It can be our thing together. And I'm going to teach poots how to crochet
I'm also still writing this blog and working towards my 2,000 posts by 2020
Thursday, September 5, 2019
What limiting beliefs do you have that’s keeping you from reaching your dream life?
I know I have quite a few imiting beliefs that are holding me back from growing and from moving on. The biggest is I'm afrais of fauilure. I know I'm NOT a failure, but the potential to maybe fail at things is what keeps me stuck. Stuck in the same job, stuck not going back to school, just stuck in general. I don't want to start school and get to math and it's hard and I fail. I don't want to fail at life. My marriage already failed, so I don't wnt to take too many more L's. Right now I'm just comfortable nd really focused on making money. What i love to do is have a 2nd job in the morning. I want to make mor money. I know I wont fail at that becuse I'm marketable. So i enjoy setting personal oals for myself that I know I can achieve, but it still never feels good enouh. I'm still doing much of the same and i don't like that. HOwever, I do feel confiddent about a 2nd job
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