Friday, August 31, 2018
VIDEO: Loving OUR Breasts! By Accepting Our BREASTS!
All I've been thinking about is self love and self care. Learning me all over has been a fun journey. Ive been able to write a lot more and the universe is attracting every bit of information I need to benefit my life right now. Including this video gem that was in my watch later list. I struggle with loving my breast , especially after having and nursing two children. They used to be GREAT. 34 DD's. Now, they are a THIN, saggy C cup. I feel self conscious when I am topless, or braless. Theres so much skin on them now. I want to love them again, but i just barely like them now. So everyday I'm going to massage my breast and tell them I love them. I have some breast exercises that I'll also do
The BIGGEST thing I need to help with and GREATEST act of self love to myself would be to quit smoking. The problem is, is that whenever I quit smoking I get depressed and anxious for a while initially. t subsides eventually but it takes a very long time and I just don't want to feel that hurt. I already batle with it, I don't want to spiral down hill but at the same time I don't want to die of lung cancer or have any sort of smokers disease. I honestly HATE that I ever picked up the habit. It is honestly one of my biggest regrets. But it's NOTHING to just STOP. I wish it were just THAT EASY. lol. But I WILL do it.
The three biggest challenges I have in my life now are
- Exercise
- Not smoking
- Eating right
Thursday, August 30, 2018
VIDEO Sermon: Cleansing ourselves of european concepts by Dr. Marimba Ani
Truly enjoyed this classic piece of information. I especially liked that she gave the parallel African concepts with the European concepts that need to be cleared out. Showing us and telling us exactly where a healthy spirit and mind should be thinking on and doing. "Everything single thing that European's do is about the pursuit of European power". If the way things are does not facilitate in the getting of power, and being able to dominate, the European is not interested. They have a very separatist mind. They HAVE to think that way, because the only way they can comfortably oppress others is by separating themselves and having a "better then THEM" attitude. That atitude and way of thinkng is in their DNA. I really don't understand how other people of color DON'T see how white patriarchal racism has marred every aspect of life for us.
Tuesday, August 28, 2018
I'VE MISSED YOU
I truly miss blogging and have been craving to get back at it again. here is so much more to talk about. My life is so different these days. I know i have slowed up with blogging with writing is always in my heart. I have still been:
1. Reading good books.
2. watching really good YouTube videos
3. doing my NATURAL hair
4. drinking lots of water
5. studying metaphysics
6. Working my Good Hospital job
So those are the few good points in my life. The kids and I also want to start a little family business of our own that I am really excited about. We'll be selling candy apples and candy strawberries.
I have a completely new living situation now but I like it for the most part and I have MY OWN APARTMENT. Been living there for almost 2 years now. I have a couple of roommates that I like but it's DEFINITELY character building.
Blogging has always been a relaxing hobby. I want to start incorporating it into my nightly routine again like how it used to be. This blog has ALWAYS held a special place in my hart especially since it was one of the first ways us natural girls put ourselves in these inter-webs, and we formed a community. Speaking of natural hair. My hair and I have more of a peaceful relationship. lol. I'm rocking a really cute side and back shave and i LOVE my curls. My texture is always popin especially when I have the proper curling products. But i even still like MY hair when I don't have it curly and it's just moisturized with shea butter and soft.
I still have those personal journey goals that I set and battle with. The flaws and habits that I see in myself that I'd like to heal and take a closer look at. I want to know who I am. What i believe in with solid conviction so that I can give the children more of a solid SPIRITUAL foundation. Since Devin and I have split I don't lie that I went through a period of real self destruction. There was not much consideration as o what my actions wold do to my reputation of peace of mind and I NEVER want to be there again. There was so much ANGER that I had to deal with. I have done so, but I stil have a long ways to go. I've dropped the ball with my REAL self care and self love. To be honest I don't love myself MUCH, and I certainly don't love myself PROPERLY and that shit HAS to change. A few methods as to HOW?
1.DAILY 15 min meditation
2. QUITTING , I MEAN REALLY QUITTING SMOKING. My children want me to stop this so bad and honestly so do I . I am ready to put this habit down. The desire is there, just not the will power.
3. Reading. I still enjoy reading. It's STILL my favorite pass time. I'm reading The Science of Mind. REALLY studying it to understand it and meditate on it. enjoy it so much. I'm also reading a few other secular books that are good. Including Issa Rea's Awkward Black Girl. really like it. She is HILARIOUS, smart and AWKWARD as hell. I really enjoy the book and her show Insecure. I can't wait to put the review up. Se is such and inspiration for me and I am SUPER proud of her.
4. Yoga/ Exercise. My biggest issue with ANY of this is freaking CONSISTENCY. What I would lie to see in myself is CONSISTENCY. Not even necessarily COMPLETION right now but just DOING what I am supposed to do to see results. Not just with exercise but all aspects of my life. want consistency and contentment. Peace and happiness. I downloading a cute little yoga exercise app to the phone. This is help me on track.
5. Smarts. I like workng on math equations and puzzles. That also relaxes me and increased brain power and fun
6. Watching educational YouTube videos has become another favorite pass time like reading. I just wish that I could remember more and recall of what I watch and read. So i'll be taking notes and making sure to put up the links with reviews of them on here. There are actually quit a few I have already watched and just need to put up and review.
7. STUDYING METAPHYSICS! It's so much fun. And really there is no one particular things to do here because my reading material, and youtube contents are all pretty much metaphysical books and videos.
I am really on on a personal journey of self, love, and care. Tough love and self discipline. I want to read great African American authors I've never read before and share them with my children. The kids and I watched Beloved on television this weekend past. It was fun and thy were surprisingly INTO it. It pointed out the important of watching iconic black films with them. Teaching them about history in this country is tricky because I only want to teach them TRUTH. Not just facts but TRUTH. There is a difference.
1. Reading good books.
2. watching really good YouTube videos
3. doing my NATURAL hair
4. drinking lots of water
5. studying metaphysics
6. Working my Good Hospital job
So those are the few good points in my life. The kids and I also want to start a little family business of our own that I am really excited about. We'll be selling candy apples and candy strawberries.
I have a completely new living situation now but I like it for the most part and I have MY OWN APARTMENT. Been living there for almost 2 years now. I have a couple of roommates that I like but it's DEFINITELY character building.
Blogging has always been a relaxing hobby. I want to start incorporating it into my nightly routine again like how it used to be. This blog has ALWAYS held a special place in my hart especially since it was one of the first ways us natural girls put ourselves in these inter-webs, and we formed a community. Speaking of natural hair. My hair and I have more of a peaceful relationship. lol. I'm rocking a really cute side and back shave and i LOVE my curls. My texture is always popin especially when I have the proper curling products. But i even still like MY hair when I don't have it curly and it's just moisturized with shea butter and soft.
I still have those personal journey goals that I set and battle with. The flaws and habits that I see in myself that I'd like to heal and take a closer look at. I want to know who I am. What i believe in with solid conviction so that I can give the children more of a solid SPIRITUAL foundation. Since Devin and I have split I don't lie that I went through a period of real self destruction. There was not much consideration as o what my actions wold do to my reputation of peace of mind and I NEVER want to be there again. There was so much ANGER that I had to deal with. I have done so, but I stil have a long ways to go. I've dropped the ball with my REAL self care and self love. To be honest I don't love myself MUCH, and I certainly don't love myself PROPERLY and that shit HAS to change. A few methods as to HOW?
1.DAILY 15 min meditation
2. QUITTING , I MEAN REALLY QUITTING SMOKING. My children want me to stop this so bad and honestly so do I . I am ready to put this habit down. The desire is there, just not the will power.
3. Reading. I still enjoy reading. It's STILL my favorite pass time. I'm reading The Science of Mind. REALLY studying it to understand it and meditate on it. enjoy it so much. I'm also reading a few other secular books that are good. Including Issa Rea's Awkward Black Girl. really like it. She is HILARIOUS, smart and AWKWARD as hell. I really enjoy the book and her show Insecure. I can't wait to put the review up. Se is such and inspiration for me and I am SUPER proud of her.
4. Yoga/ Exercise. My biggest issue with ANY of this is freaking CONSISTENCY. What I would lie to see in myself is CONSISTENCY. Not even necessarily COMPLETION right now but just DOING what I am supposed to do to see results. Not just with exercise but all aspects of my life. want consistency and contentment. Peace and happiness. I downloading a cute little yoga exercise app to the phone. This is help me on track.
5. Smarts. I like workng on math equations and puzzles. That also relaxes me and increased brain power and fun
6. Watching educational YouTube videos has become another favorite pass time like reading. I just wish that I could remember more and recall of what I watch and read. So i'll be taking notes and making sure to put up the links with reviews of them on here. There are actually quit a few I have already watched and just need to put up and review.
7. STUDYING METAPHYSICS! It's so much fun. And really there is no one particular things to do here because my reading material, and youtube contents are all pretty much metaphysical books and videos.
I am really on on a personal journey of self, love, and care. Tough love and self discipline. I want to read great African American authors I've never read before and share them with my children. The kids and I watched Beloved on television this weekend past. It was fun and thy were surprisingly INTO it. It pointed out the important of watching iconic black films with them. Teaching them about history in this country is tricky because I only want to teach them TRUTH. Not just facts but TRUTH. There is a difference.
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