Saturday, July 31, 2010

"Ghetto Ballerina" (this story bought a tear 2 my eye)

i LOVE to see? hear stories of people's dreams comming true. i would LOVE to have a hand in helping someone's dream come true.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

i cut my hair off

so that i can start locs!!! YAYYYYY!!! im so excited. but when i cut it off i LIKED being completely bald. well not completely but as u can se..its shhhhhhhhorrrrrrrtttt!! lool oh yea and i died it blonde...but that story is another post

Wednesday, July 21, 2010


i spend my time reading and writting alot in my journal. i plan on transferring alot of what i have written to this blog, but i have to do a lot of editing because most of it is just tooo personal. But i have been balling up in a yoga ball (LITERALLY..i LOVE yoga. but more on that later) and pretty much staying to myself. i have had alot of conversation with Jehovah, a lot of conversation with myself ect. i find that reading books takes me out of MY reality, and put me somewhere eles. somewhere, where unlike my lfe...if i choose the bok correctly , the outcome is ALWAYS positive. When im reading i dont have to deal with people. Although i love peole, i just find that it seems when i interact with them, theres sooo much drama.i either hurt them, or they hurt me. So iv poured myself into mentally escaping. Iv poured myself into training my mind and body. instead of being SOOO concerned with people and carnel things, i am more concerned with the spiritual. and trying to train/open my spiritual eyes further. I LOVE IT. i love the results. i am more connected to my daughter as a result. Devin and i still struggle, but not NEARLY a much as before. He's still my darling, darling angel though. i love him sooo much. and i pray for him more then he ever knows. i fuss, i cry, im a mess. but that man is my back bone, and if it werent for him i dont know where i'd be. he has saved my life in more ways then he will EVER know. im sooo appreciative that he is my husband. He may not be perfect....but hes beter then MOST loosers out hear. and i am willing and able to stick around for his growth and his company.
i am focused on seeing people SPIRITS and feeling SPIRITS in a area, vs just what i can SEE with my eye. There is soo much PAST the physical universe that most people dont concern themselves with. we are in a spiritual warfare and yo never know just when you'll be in a physical one. thats y i feel that it is JUST as important to train up the body, just as you would your mind. i think its important to fast and exercise ,do endiurance training for the mind and body. i believe keeping a clean and fit body allows God's holy spirit to operate more efficiantly through it.i hear his voice better when i am clean inside and out
i have second job also. the training for it has been GRULLING!! UGGG!!! but once i get through this part, i will be able to make my own schedule and do what i want. so im pleased with my secod job. but my MAIN job has been going a bit haywire, because my boss pretty much up and quit on us, and we have no boss now. so iv been working like EVERYDAY with no BREAK for the past 21 nights in a row. i try not to complain, because lawd knows i need the money, and i think about people who have worked 7 days a week for YEARS...but BOY am i tired. to keep myself rejuvinated and going, i keep strict regimen of reading
i know that my reward is in heaven and Jehovah sees all my struggles, he will not let my hard work go unnoticed. so i have peace right now in my life. im not letting things worry/ bother me. i know everything is going to be a-ok!!

Tuesday, July 13, 2010


so as u all know i have enjoyed a pretty regular exercise rutine lately. for at least a month i have gotten off work and gone to the gym inthe mornings. and LET ME TELL YOU THE BENEFITS!!!!!!
1.a SEVERLY increased libido!OMG!!!! How i DO enjoy NUMBER ONE!!! My husband has benefited greatly from this one. I believe it has something to do with the increased blood flow to "certain" "happy" areas, and the endorphines your body releases . MY MIND IS ALLLWAYS on sex and how i cant wait to get home to DO MY HUSBAND!! EEEOOWW!!! i feel so pretty, and sexy. i sit at work and day dream about him. wishing that we were together more often through the day.
2.MAJOR improved look of skin: My skin has this BEAUTIFUL smooth reddish tint. iv been using Aveeno too. im sure both things has a combination of it
3.not as depressed: i feel better emotionally. YESSSSS BITCHES!!
4.detoxes the body you sweat out all those daily toxins that the enviroment may put into ur skin and body. I LOVE IT!!

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

poots and i at the beack!!

Poots and i have been spending sooo much time together lately. doing all kinds of cool things together. like this day, we went to the beack just she and i. it was a blast!!