OMG! THIS WEEKEND LEMME TELL U

interesting:
1,argument with daddy
2.sex with devin (whaaaat?!)
3.cook outs
4.poots wouldnt sleep

ok so a lot has happened and now i will explain. FIRST OFF: Friday nights and Saturday night poots would NOT SLEEP!! she woke up at 3 and didnt go back to sleep til on friday, then Saturday she woke up at 12 and didnt go back to sleep til 5! i was soooo sleep. but i ended up just getting on up. when she fell back asleep i went back to sleep. she's been doing that for like the past week or so. staying up ALLL night while at work with me. lol. devin say because i work nights and sleep during the day her sleep pattern in beginning to be that. and it's true because when i go home in the morning we cuddle and sleep ALLL day til 3 or sometimes 5. lol. poor poots. i dont like that because when she starts school i dont want to to be sleepy during the day cause she's used to being sleep. but i dont wanna quit work and work during the day because then i'll have to put her in day care and be away from her and all that bull shit! if i quit we'll hardly have any money. we cant afford it. the fuckin cost of living is so damn high, most mommy's cant AFFORD to stay home with thier poots. *sighs* so i was sleepy most of the weekend cause she wanted to be up playin. lol. kickin my side and whinnin cause she wanted me physically up and in her face. lol. oooo what am i gonna do?

on top of no sleep i got into a REALLY BIG argument with my dad. OMG! i couldnt believe it. he was totally over steppinghis boundaries. i know i am his child and all but took it upon himself to call DEVIN's dad and tell him y we dont have a car. i was soooo pissed at him! i had already taken care of what i wanted who to know in my life. then he had the audasity to say that if i dont start cleaning more he's gonna tell my landlord! WTF?! i was like the hell u will! well, no i didnt curse at him...i would never but i was mad and i was yellin. i realize some of the things he was saying was right but it's the principle of the fact that this is my life and i draw a line in his meddling in it. and telling people who dont need to know my business! i get mad everytime i think about it! but what hurt the most is the fact that we were arguing like that. WE HAVE NEVER fussed like that. all the yelling and what not. i was so damn mad. but i had no right to scream at my daddy like that. i got off the phone and cried to devin because my dad is one of my best friends and i feel i can come to him with anything and when this happened i felt as though i didnt want to tell him anything or even talk to him. well the next day he called and we talked some more he apalogised. all is good now. inside i knew it would be i just didnt kknow when. cause i was in no apologising mood. i was happy i stood up for myself the way i did.

mmmmm....Devin and i made love FRIDAY, SATURDAY, AND SUNDAY. it was good. i didnt have to force myself to do it neither. i did my hair so i looked really cute and i felt really cute too. lol. i watched the nasty girls on my nasty movies we have and studied what they do just to add some spice to it. lol. it was fun. a little too much fun as a matter of fact. lol. friday night devin and i slipped up and i had to get a morning after pill. but i have to get it this morning when the pharmacy opens because it closed early saturday and i didnt know. but i have 72 hours to take it and it's not 72 hours til monday evening. i'll be taking it first thing monday morning. i have never taken one b4. i wonder what it will feel like. certainly nothing like an abortion. it's not a life til the sperm meet the egg and i still have time to stop it. i dont want another baby for a while and we too damn simple to use a condom. asking for it huh?

this saturday and sunday there was cookouts at devins grandma's house. i actually had fun and debuted my short hair cut. got a lot of compliments and devins dad said i looked pretty. lol. but his family is warming up to me and i felt a lot more at ease this time then any other. OMG! and whomever made that potatoe salad!! it was soooo good. needless to say i didnt get a chance to relax like i wanted to. i'm sure there will be much drama this week and leave me longing for the weekend.