we were invited to 6 flags. but beings though we are in the finacial situation we are in i dont feel i will have the money to go. and i dont know who would watch kira. but devin's best friend offered to pay for him. and i feel some kindda way about it. i dont want him to go without me. i feel i deserve to go and have fun. how come he gotta have a friend that would pay for him and i aint got one that would pay for me? i am pouting and being sooo wrong. i KNOW. but its how i feel. i wish he would have asked if his friend could pay for me too. but i know how awkward that can be. plus i dont want him going and being around all the pretty half naked women without me. stuff like tis brings out my insecurities
i wish i could tell him i feel about it. but i afriad, that if i do talk to him about it, he'll just latch on to me being insecure and make me feel like shit for that. i could hear him now "you just dont want me to go because youre insecure!...well, you ARE arent you?" instead of soothing my insecurities and helping me get past it.
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