HE TOLD ME

TONIGHT THAT HE DOESNT WANT TO GET MARRIED UNTIL WE MAKE CHANGES IN OUR RELATIONSHIP. COOL. HE DOESNT LIKE MY FUSSINESS. AND I MUST ADMITT THAT IS THE BIGGEST THING I HAVE TO WORK ON MYSELF. IS CONTROLLING MY ANGER AND EMOTIONS. IT'S JUST THAT HE DOES OR SAYS THINGS THAT MAKE ME SO ANGRY AT TIMES. AND I GET SO OVERWHELMED WITH IT. AND REALLY ALL IT AMOUNTS TO IS HIM BEING DIFFERENT FROM EVERYONE. HE JUST MARCHES TO THE BEAT OF HIS OWN DRUM. AND THATS OK FOR HIM...JUST NOT ME ALL THE TIME. IDK HOW I EVEN FEEL RIGHT NOW. I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO CALM DOWN AND BREATHE. MEDITATE, JUST BE. IDK WHATS BEEN UP WITH ME LATELY BUT I NEED TO GET RID OF THIS ENERGY THAT I HAVE. THAT I HOLD ON TO, CARRY AROUND WITH ME AND THEN UNLEASH IT INTO THE WORLD LIKE A WHIRL WIND OF KEASHI HELL. LMAOOO. BUT NO. IT'S ALL BEGINNING TO COME TO A HEAD NOW. AND IT'S BEGINNING TO NOT JUST EFFECT ME BUT MY RELATIONSHIPS. MAYBE I NEED TO TALK TO A THERAPIST.