Monday, November 5, 2007

Akira RYEquell???? WHAT?!?!

I tought of Akira, Devin thought of Riequell. hmmmm. Yeah, that's right. What is supposed to be Raquell has been changed to be pronounced in the most GHETTO, HORRIBLE fashion EVER. Do you understand what i am saying? Do you understand how he wants this name pronounced?RYE- QUELL! Like fuckin RYE bread! What the hell is that? And everytime i say Raquell he corrects me and makes me say it the other ghetto way. And today he hauled off and said that he was spelling it so that it looks like RYEQUELL. God, I hate it, i hate it, i hate it!!! I told him how ghetto it is. And how much i HATE it, but it doesnt matter to him because Akira is half his child too. He LIKES ghetto. I dont know why. He's not FROM the ghetto, nor does he ACT ghetto. How can he see ghetto as a GOOD thing? Thats like liking hillbilly, or fuckin redneck style. And seeing that as being ok. Then he went on to say that with our second girl he is naming her Devin. Now, mind you, when we were trying to think of boy names and i wanted him to be a Sr. and have a Devin jr he HATED the idea. Said no all around. But then, for some dumb ass reason he LIKES Devin for a GIRL??? A GIRL????!!! How is that ok? I dont understand. He makes absolutely no sense to me. And he's not backing down or compromising about ANYTHING! Sometimes his thinking is so ANNOYING. We were talking the other day about some aspect of raising Akira and EVERYTHING he says is just immature and WRONG! And how I KNOW it's NOT just ME is because i ask other people there opinion on the matters we discuss. Other mature people. Like our parents. And they all feel how I do. It's not about me being vindicated or anything. It's about what right and wrong and right and healthy for our child. But he's OFF somewhere/ somehow. He told me the other day that he would not be so head strong about Akira when she gets here, that he would back back about a lot of issues. But i dont see that happening at all. Just based off of the conversation we had tonight. He's not going to. I know that we are going to be at odds with one another and this hurts so bad. I told him the other night that sometimes i feel like After Akira gets here we will be at each other's throat so much and I will eventutally tire of hearing his defensive, immature mouth that I will leave. By myself. I know i would come back and probably wouldnt be for long but i see myself getting to that point. I would feel like " well, you raise her!". I know me. But I also know that at the same time I couldnt leave my baby. That would be selfish reasons and I would miss her terribly. but i would leave to clear my head. or i would take her with me. God i'm nervous. I wonder what this is going to do to us when she is born. I wonder how it will effect her. It cant effect her, i wont let it. She wont know, it's none of her business.

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