so much has been going on lately. here goes:
1.devin has a job prospect. He went on the interview today.th ejob is with amtrack train station. and if he gets this job he will have to be away from home for like days on end. problems with this was: 1. he's gonna be GONE for DAYS and LONG hours. i feel like , im in a relationship for a reason. because i want to BE WITH him. 2.he will hardly get to see poots. 3.idk what imma do about school. because by him not being home at all and me working nights, whos gonna watch poots while im in school and at work. and i know about day car. but i feel so hung up about trusting people with people with my child. idk...on the plus of THIS is that my school does offer daycare on the campus for 35.00 a day. if i take classes one or two days a week, i could check on poots ANY time. i have thought about that. 4.i wonder wat temptation lay in the dark, with us being apart so much. i mean, niether one of us has ever cheated, but weare both guilty of doing some things that deserve the side eye. i just wonder how so much time apart is going to effect us.
im thinking that maybe this is just jehovah telling me to focus more on spiritual things. maybe without school and devin around so much i can get reinstated THEN go back to school. u know, first things first. idk...i really didnt want to stop school though, or skip a semester. speaking of which, thatmath shit is for the birds! idk if imma pass math. i hope so so bad. imma try real hard
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