THis Week

was a bad week far as my daily goals are concerned. i havnt read my bible. or prayed o read my book much. i have to crunch doown o n that between today and saturday.i took my bible to the meeting and left it in the car and i never get it out or put it in my bag when i am done with it then. so i believe i need to get a scond bible so i can keep one in the car and one in my bag. ao today i have a lot to do
1. read my book
2. read my bible
3. go to my meeting
4. pray
i went to the meeting this past sunday. and i promised myself that i would go THurday espcially since i have nothing to do.
but on the plus
1. i have money saved
2. i am starting school
3. my hair looks good still ( willpost pics tonight)
4. i CLEANED YAAAAAAAAAAAAY
so i aint too down on myself. its all good. i want to draw more attention and take better care of my appearence. the fact that i have been accomplishing my goals makes me feel good. i want to get some high heels, new outfits, make up, hair, and nails. i dont feel i am being vane because i am being balanced. as a matter of a fact if u ask me i have been a little unbalanced. neglecting my looks and only focusing on LIFE. shit i wanna look good and be about my shit too. so this weekend
i will
1 get my nails done
2. eye lashes done
3. eye brows waxed
it aint time for my hair yet. so thats cool. lol.

SHOES I WANT TO BUY

i am stretching out my fashion comfort . i want to buy Cardigans, hats, Vests, straight leg jeans, sun glasses, blazers and high heels. these are what i have seen that i like

I FEEL GOOD

i figured i'd better write and document this feeling since it seems not to come often or last long when it is here. lmaoooo. i feel good because for the first time in areally long time i actually feel i am accomplishing something. with the start of my school quickly approaching i feel i am about to pop out of my skin. im just that excited about it. i should be starting NO later then my the end of Feb. i called the school today and the dean actually called me back! stayed on the phone with me and answered ALL of my questions.i am loking forward to this thing.

i am really feeling fashion and appearences lately. i have been keeping my hair done. but now i want to get into keeping my make up done, and dressing. ok, when i go to work i where scrubs. but i want to have gatherings at the house and go places and LOOK cute while doing it. i plan on utilizing this thrift store down the street from my house. i went in there and bought a REALLY cute knit , black skirt. it was 4.50 lmaoooo. so i plan on searching in different thrift stores for shit i can HOOK UP. but still shop at the mall to make it pop.

i want to focus my makeup on my eyes, and lips. i already have a nice mineral foundation. but i LOVE eys and lips. so i want to have really fun makeup, without loking like a clown. lmaoo. i want to get into deep red lips, and purples. i have always been so SAFE with my ake up. relying on browns and neutrals
so i wouldnt look clownish. lmaoo there was this girl i grew up with who scared me far as make up is concerned. she would always look like a clown. always wearing TOO MUCH of something TOO BRIGHT! so idk what POSSESSED me to let her do my makeup for my high school graduation!! when i loked at myself in the mirror i cried so hard. i looked sooooo ugly. like a damn clown! my mom was like JUST WASH IT OFF! and i went plain jane to my highs school graduation. but il ooked much prettier then with all that shit she had on my face at first. relying solely on my carmex. i was just fine. so that whole EXPERIENCE made me NEVER want to do make up. because i was afraid i'd look like i did that day. lmaooo. but now i am ready to venture out. to take chances with my look. imm try it and post pics. lol

i am also excited about my G1 phone i plan on getting. the applications for this shit is FIERCE! WOOOOOOOW!! cant wait

HERBS FOR HAIR LOSS CHART

from
http://indulgenceiskey.blogspot.com/2009/01/tip-for-you-herbs-that-are-used-to.html

THis Weekend

i did everything i said i wanted to. and i am soooooo proud of myself. I opened my savings account. and checking account, and i got my hair done. got the stuff i need for my MO GRO

I found these bigger pics of poots

and it bought a tear to my eye. i cant believe she is almost 1. and just a lil over 10mos ago this was her:




She had gotten sooo big. i dont want her to grow up.




i want her to stay my sweet sweet lil baby forever. i want us to always be as close as we are now. she is my shinning light. my guiding light. i remember being pregnant and how i was afraid to love her with all my heart. i'm talking about being head over heels in love and volnurable. but i put those feeling aside and said that this is my baby and i will love her as hard as i want to. she is the only person i see me giving myself to 250% someone recently told me not to do that. she said that just like god can give a gift of a child he can take it away. i dont believe that. i dont beieve god the GIVER of life would turn around and TAKE life. and i CERTAINLY dont believe he would do it JUST BECAUSE or teach a lesson. a lesson of "not to love to hard'?? that makes no sense. god is the personification and embodyment of love. he wouldnt hurt his people like that. But Satatn would. If anybody would take life out of cruelty it is satan. But still i cant help how i feel about her. How i think about her, and love her. She makes me a better person. She motivates me. and i thank her for that.

after the color

its so pretty. there is something about fresh black colored hair that i just love. there is nothing like it. no other color like black to me. its so simple and pretty. in my opinion it makes the hair looks so healthy.