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NOTHING has been going on lately..i guess i just havnt really wanted to write. i havnt felt like it. lol. but tonight i feel lik eit and i feel motivated. devin wants another baby not long after we get married. and i dont. i THOUGHT i wanted more kids...but i REALY REALLY dont. i just want one...my poots. i just cant see going through pregnancy, breastfeeding and the emotional up's and down's of hanving another baby. i only want to deal with it with one kid. plus the shit is expensive. but mainly because i only want my devotion and attention to be on one kid. i too felt hurt because he gave me an ultimatum of: either you SAY RIGHT NOW we can have another kid in the future or we cant get married. i felt hurt because its like..DONT FUCKIN GIVE ME ULTIMATUMS...im not a kid.he said that REALLY there is not COMPRIMISE. you either have one more kid or u dont.but it should be MY choice. dont fuckin give me ultimatums about MY BODY.so here is MY deal...we CAN have ONE more. dude could come out 1/2 & 1/2 for all i care...but number two is where it STOPS for me!