VACATION PICS

please pardon my lateness. we actually went on this vacation about a month ago. and i lost a lot of the pictures. but this is the gist of our vacation. the only even im missing in picture form that we did was go cart racing We went to a candy warehouse. it was COOL!! We went to play mini golf. and poots wanted her turn Poots and grandma playing in the house. looool.rough housin! we went Paintball shooting. it was a BLAST!!

Took Down the Rihanna video

I didnt like it. it was deamonic in my opinion. So iv decided instead to just write. i have been battling TERRIBLE bouts of depression all week. i have been CRYING,and ANGRY and nauseous. After my breakdown earlier this week, i just cant seem to pull myself together. and its not just this situation with my mom. its MORE then that. its: 1. What if my marriage fails, and i fall flat on my face? 2. would i go back to being a JW? i wouldnt want to but at the same time i would want to go to the same church Devin does. 3.I am soooo tiredof ARGUING and feeling annoyed, and being misunderstood in my marriage. i just REALLY dont know HOW to deal. I know i didnt make a mistake in getting married, i know this is just Satan stressing me out....but im REALLY at my wits end with the preassure of it all. and getting NO relief. My situation with my mom doesnt seem to be getting any better, then i have to deal with Devin's aggrevation ect. JUST EVERYTHING!! i need a break. i REALLY do! i love my husband, bu i need relief. not to mention my back is KILLING me!

Ludacris ft Trey Songz "Sex Room"

I had a Nervous Breakdown

Last night i had a nervous break down. Just thinking about my life threw me into a fast panic attack. i was throwing up, and shaking uncontrolably. it was terrible.

So Much

so much is going on in my life right now. its rediculous!! i cant wait to work out in the mornig when i get off. i took the last two days off. i dont want to get lazy and fall off with my workingout.
But i told my mom that i go to church. AND OH GOD! im sure the worst has yet to come. But i actually feel independent and like i am FINALLY on my own. she said that im serving Satan. I dont understand. I could TOTALLY understand thier anger (my parents)if i were doing something COMPLETELY VOID of GOD.

My Fitness Goals For this Month

1.EveryDay Run 3 mils or the equivalent of cardio for AT LEAST 30 mins : in 6 mos i want to be able to run 3 mils in 30 mins
2.Every OTHER Day: 100 stomach crunches. 20 leg lifts
3.Every Other Day : i do my legs and arms in weights

DIET:::::::::
1.Cut out meat, white flour food, extra salt, sugar, coffee
2.In 6 mos i want to be eatting ONLY fruits, veggies and whole wheat products
3. juicing
i feel sooo FULL and icky when i eat flour products. it makes no sense. but wheni eat wheat...i feel less BULKY and i go to the bathroom more.

i must say that im doing good on my way to these things though. i have more self control tn i thought. my least favorite exercise are abs

Today's Show take on Curly vs Straight Hair

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