INSPIRE ME BEAUTIFULLY

INSPIRE ME BEAUTIFULLY: Solonge Knowles

Inspire Me BEAUTIFULLY: Teyana Taylor

I have always LLLLOOOOOVVVVEEEEDDD her style and HAIR! she is a FIYAH BITCH!!

We're Getting Married On The 20th

ok ok ok for real for real this time. no more jokin around. lmaooo..but in reality yall..its ME. i get cold feet. he is always READY when ever i set a date then i chicken out. cause when things are great i am ALL FOR IT, and i think "i am going to spend my life with him." then he gets on my nerves some kindda way i think "i am going to spend my life with him??" and i realize that not only do i have to spend my life with the good, but the bad too. and i know this will ALWAYS be the case with ANYONE, but it trips me up at time, and makes me fearful. ill pray through it.

I Need To Take Better Care Of Myself

i am sooo happy to be in school. and i really feel as though i am accomplishing my goals. i love school. i study and read my chapter, do my homework. last week however i took a math test and FAILED it TWICE. i was sooo super discouraged, only because i practiced and practiced and practiec my ASS off. until i was doing COMPLETE practice sheet and MAYBE getting one wrong. so to take a test a FAIL, was like a slap in the face to me. i went in the bathroom and cried so hard.im PMS'ing and i just COULD NOT control it. it took EVERYTHING in me not to leave for that day. i didnt. and ended up feeling so much better. i mean on th plus side, the math class is a self paced math class so i have as long as i need to to pass. but my goal was to finnish it in like half the semester so i could move on. but now i feel as though i need to take better physical care of myself. drinking more water, eatting more veggies ect. i dont poo often. (TMI? sorry) but it worries me. i need to be here as long as possible for poots. and i sure as hell aint gettin younger. there are other things too but...they are kind of personal. i havent done ANYTHING spiritual. i start off sooo strong and then when i fall off i REALLY fall off. its frustrating really. as a result my mom is treating me worse then ever. she doesnt great me, of say goodbye, theres no small talk no NOTHING. i havnt really felt inspired to write. when i have one thing right 10 things go wrong.

This was a CUUUUTE picture...decided to post

of Poots and her Aunt Aerica. Luhh em' both!

School Starts Today

For me...im a bit nervous and anxious and excited all at the same time. lol. i am just anxious to start it CONTINUE it and get it OVER with. without failing ANY classes or no bullshit like that.its been my goal for soo long to go back to school and FINNISH. i actually feel like i am not standing still in my life. i feel like i am accomplishing something and going somewhere. FINALLY! its been long over due.ill be 26 by the time i finnish and poots would be starting school soon. so that gives me time. lol. only thing i dont like is that SOON as school starts it gets COLD out. i HATE cold weather. thats the only thing that stops me and slows me down from wanting to do stuff. lol. but never mind that cause i am DETERMINED to start and finnish.