Wednesday, May 28, 2014
I hardly ever write on here anymore. Years ago I stoped writing so much, I just got SUPER tired of all of my entries being about how Devin was on my nerves and how angry and depressed I stayed. Now a days i feel better. Significantly better. I dont eat a lot of stuff. I dont eat a lot of foolishness, my diet pretty much consists of brown rice and veggies with the occasional treat. EVERYTHING seems to make me super depressed and angry.I stay away from sugar, caffeine, red meat, refined flour, and fat. I also try to run everyday. I LOVE running. It gives me something to look forward to. My life was beginning to feel like all these constant hurts, sadness and anger, and all i even had to look forward to were hurts, sadness and anger, well, now i have so much more. I go to group therapy, which is AWESOME. I love having the support. Theres my Spiritual Center that i attend regularly, running, and spending time with the kids and friends. I still love to read and write and i have a pretty consistent prayer and meditation routine But i cant help but feel that there is still something missing. I dont know. Still a void in me. A lack of fulfillment, or achievement. Like I havnt ACCOMPLISHED anything. Have yet to GROW and see the fruits of my growth.